awe, Mr. M

He was good to me, made me feel right, that night before his flight.
All he wanted was my love and my time
I gave him everything that was mine
He took it all without decline
I couldn't help but feel that I would not see him again
perhaps that this was the end
I was happy that we had what we had
even if it wasn't that deep
I caught myself looking over at him
while we laid there falling asleep
I was going to miss him...
his face, his smile, his taste, his scent
Atleast I do have that...
the memories that we made

Imagination

I wish I was sitting on a mountain top looking at towards the ocean.
Feeling the breeze of the air on my skin, through my hair.
Taking in the bitterness of the salt water around me.
Feeling the slight burn of the sun on my skin.
Hearing the seagulls above me singing softly while rummaging for food.
I would sit looking up with my eyes closed toward the sun
taking in everything around me, filling up all my senses.
This would be bliss to me...
I am happy that my mind can take me there, even if my body can't.

Sweet Words for Daniel

My new muse inspired me...

If I could give you the world, would you take it from me?
A sweet whisper-"yes"- is all I need
You fill me with desire, you make me feel good
I would do the same, if I only could
To kiss your lips, taste your skin
To hear you moan my name again
That would mean the world to me...

Impressions

Some guys try so hard to impress and to no avail...

Impress me with your thoughts
sunsets and infinite dreams
make me want again
Impress me with your touch
love me all night
make me hot again
Impress me with your words
so sweet and sincere
make me lie again
Impressed me with your ways...
RIPPED ME OFF AGAIN

Think positive

Sometimes I worry too much, we all do...

She moves slowly like the clouds
Waiting for her inner demons to come out
"Would you like to take this opportunity to talk
to me, would you like to tell me your dreams"?
Why can't they leave her alone, just let here be
she is so consumed by these
"Maybe if I lie, they will go away!"
Highly doubtful, she agrees
Thoughts/feelings eating at her
Worrying for nothing
Negativity will do that to you

An Ode to My Pillow..

Last year when I hurt my back and I was literally out of commission for 5 weeks, I became close to a dear friend of mine whom helped me in my recovery...

I keep you secure
You keep me safe
You feel so good when your pressed between my legs
When I look down, I don't frown
I thank you every night
for making me feel alright!

(I love you pillow)

remember to sleep with a pillow between your legs to relieve the pressure on your lower back

Never again...

I'm was drunk. I could barely look at his face, because I didn't want to. He was nice enough I suppose, but not what I really wanted, just a sad substitute for the night. His words to me were stupid and selfish. My motives for being there were like his words to me...pathetic. I just wanted to get what I came for and go home to my own bed, alone, to pass out. I needed sleep. What the fuck was I thinking?!? He felt familiar to me, like he did so many years before, but different at the same time. I guess time does change people. He tried so hard, but he couldn't even get a drop out of me, I just wasn't there. I closed my eyes, picturing other people that I would rather have wanted to be with, but to no avail. He kept saying those words to me, over and over. I just wanted him to shut up. (Make some noises, but no words please). I did the only thing that I could to get it over with, I faked it!...arhhh. He came and I left. He had no clue...sad.